My Glory Story: Praise God through the Pain, Part 3

The more time that I spent sitting at the feet of Jesus, the better and better my life became.

God blessed our family so much in 2016.  ­­Kris began a new job in his hometown of Clarksville, TN at Austin Peay State University.  I sold our house with the aid of the Holy Spirit in less than one week for full asking price.  God then miraculously gave us our dream house in Clarksville, another story for another time.  Brayden, our oldest son,  graduated from the University of Tennessee.  Parker, our youngest son,  mended from his injuries and excelled at APSU.  I was blessed with the opportunity to travel to Washington DC in July with Kristi Stephens to be a part of Together 2016.  We prayed on the mall between the White House and the Washington Monument for our nation to turn back to God and for the upcoming presidential election.

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I also had a divine appointment with Steven L Miller, world-renowned photographer who has nine photos on permanent display in the Smithsonian Museum. The way he captures people in his photographs taught me to look at people differently.  He taught me to stop and really look at people and then the Holy spirit would give me discernment concerning them.  I also lost 51 pounds in the first half of 2016. You know about the great vacation at Atlantic Beach.  There are so many other blessings and then, my Glory Story. 2016 was a good year.  I went into 2017 with great expectations, believing for the best year ever.  The number seventeen in the Bible symbolizes “overcoming the enemy” and “complete victory.” I believed this would hold true for 2017.IMG-4856It wasn’t long after I received the Glory Heart pendant that I dropped it on the granite floor in our bathroom.  It broke into two pieces.  I did not get upset.  I simply super-glued it back together. The break of my pendant was symbolic to life.  I realized at that time that if I would trust God, he would always mend my broken heart.  Little did I know, he was preparing me for 2017.  God continued to teach me about Love, Laser Focus and His Glory.  He gave me Proverbs 4 as my 2017 focus chapter and it included my 2017 focus verses:

 Proverbs 4:9, 20-27 

 9 She(wisdom) shall give to thine head an ornament of grace: a crown of glory shall she deliver to thee.

20 My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings.

 21 Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart.

22 For they [are] life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh.

23 Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it [are] the issues of life.

24 Put away from thee a froward mouth, and perverse lips put far from thee.

25 Let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee.

26 Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established.

27 Turn not to the right hand nor to the left: remove thy foot from evil. 

Only God could weave Proverbs 4 together so beautifully.   The 2016 Waiting Year left and escorted in the 2017 Glory Year.  My January Focus Verse:

Isaiah 41:10  Fear thou not; for I [am] with thee: be not dismayed; for I [am] thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

And:

Psalm 27:1  The LORD [is] my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD [is] the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

Funny! Psalm 27 was my focus chapter last year.  Just a reminder.

I turned from the mistakes of 2016 to FOCUS in 2017.  Laser Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus.  I was determined 2017 was going to be the best yet.  Glory and focus were what I had been hearing since late 2016.

January 2017 started with me learning about curve balls.  I learned that they were thrown to entice you to take a poor swing.  I learned that the curve ball will deceive you by breaking one way or the other due to the spin.  (Just like Satan)  You can beat the physics of a curve and crush it; however, you must wait, relax and evaluate your stance.  I learned that to beat the curve ball you must keep your feet still and stand firm as you wait.  I realized that you must be prepared beforehand for it.  WOW.  If that was not a spiritual lesson.

I committed to a 21-day fast to start off the New Year focused on God.  January arrived, and I knew that I had a story to tell.  What the Lord did in those 21 days can only be described as “living amazed.”

January 12, 2017-February 12, 2017:

I shared my Glory Story and the good news of Jesus with over fifty individuals in some shape, form or fashion.  (This does not include my divine appointment with an unknown sister at Hobby Lobby and then with the same sister again in the parking lot of Lifeway.  This encounter led me to share my testimony with an entire church.)  It was AMAZING how God directed each story line.  Each time I shared, I was directed to present it just a little bit different.  The “story,” the good news of Jesus was tailored by the Holy Spirit to the individual that I was blessed to share with.  I was living amazed and walking out Psalm 32:8.  He was instructing and teaching me the way to go.

He taught me through my sister in Christ, Kristi,  that God is seldom in a hurry, but never late.  He taught me that time and space are irrelevant when you are traveling with Him.   He taught me that I have and all access pass to answers. He taught me:

1 Corinthians 2:9-10:

 But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him. 10 But God hath revealed [them] unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searches all things, yea, the deep things of God.

I used to be sinking, barely staying a-float, struggling, an empty cup bobbing along.  However, now, I honestly felt that I was finally out of the boat walking on water.  I was taught that if I kept laser focus on my Savior, Life Guard and Life preserver, I could stand and walk on the water.  I was living on purpose.  I was living out the Oceans Song by Hillsong.

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Oh, Jesus, you’re my God!

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

January 17,2017:  First Warning

1 Corinthians 10:12-13

Wherefore let him that thinks he standeth take heed lest he fall. 13 There hath no temptation taken you, but such as is common to man: but God [is] faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear [it]

January 19, 2017: Second Warning

The Ice Dream:  A very detailed dream and interpretation about the journey of walking by faith.

January 25, 2017:

I shared with my mother in law the glorious things God had been up to in my life for the past two weeks.  We talked almost every day and I had not talked to her in about a week.  She shared her concern for our family.  I shared why I was not concerned:

  1. My God has no big problems.
  2. My daily prayer and petitions for the family:  Ephesians 1, 2, 3!
  3. I knew who God was and we could count on Him performing His word.  She told me about a night of battle she had for our entire family the previous week.

January 26, 2017: Third Warning

Rick Renner Sparling Gem:  A Fight Always Follow Illumination

But call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions; Hebrews 10:32

 I had been overwhelmingly illuminated.  The Holly Spirit just kept pouring into me.  I was overflowing.  The Holy Spirit gave me another dream that I have only shared with two other people.  It was very powerful and life altering.  Huge, Holy Ghost movie premier spotlights had been shined into my spirit.

And, during my morning prayer time, I went into all-out war against the enemy.  Fear was trying to enter.  I went to the feet of Jesus and fell before the Lord.  I pleaded with the Father.

“Father, if I continue believing and stepping across these faith lines that you continue to put in front of me, PROTECT MY FAMILY.  I pleaded that my family would be protected, shielded and that no harm nor weapon formed against them would prosper.  I need that assurance from You.”

January 27, 2017:  Assault #1 from the enemy

Between 6:30 AM – 7:00AM, I received a call that my nephew-in-law, Kevin Lawrence, had been in a head on collision.  Satan tried to steal his life.  Praise God! He walked away with only a few bruises.  I know without a doubt that my mother in law and I had interceded for him a week in advance and a day in advance.  My niece, Kayla Lawrence, said in a text to me, “I can’t say enough how much I believe in the power of prayer.  Everyday I ask Jesus to keep him safe on his way to work. I believe prayer saved his life today.”

I believe Jesus saved his life!

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January 28, 2017, early morning:  Assault #2

I received another phone call from another family member.  It was earth-shattering, heart breaking news.  I went for a walk to pray over this situation.  I was so mad at Satan for trying to attack the very family I had prayed over.  I did the stupidest thing ever!  I challenged Satan with a stupid question, “Is that the best you have got?”  Do not ever do this, seriously.

January 29, 2017:

The 21-day fast dedicated to the New Year of my Lord ended.  I listened to a timely sermon from Pastor Jentezen Franklin:  Break Up, Break Out, Break Through.

This was a sermon that encapsulated everything the Holy Spirit had been teaching me from January 19 to present.  He preached about walking by faith and fighting for our family.  He preached; don’t let your present trouble name your future and to remember to praise God in the pain

Joel 2:12-13  Therefore also now, says the LORD, turn ye [even] to me with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning: 13 And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the LORD your God: for he [is] gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil.

January 30, 2017:

At the bottom of my journal page was this verse which showed me that God was with me out in the deep ocean of trials and troubles:

Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called [thee] by thy name; thou [art] mine. 2 When thou pass through the deep waters, I [will be] with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walk through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. Isaiah 43:1-2

January 31, 2017 thru August 2017:  Assault #3

PUNCH IN THE GUT.  My Lord, my Holy Spirit and my Comforter had been preparing me for a time such as this.  This period was a really, really, really, difficult season.  It was the great fight of afflictions after the illumination.  However, God is, was and will always be faithful.  The Lord taught me so much about the journey.  He taught me about going from glory to glory.  He taught me about unconditional love and forgiveness.  If I had truly listened and applied everything he tried to teach me in preparation for this prick, the season would not have lasted so long.  After taking hit after hit, I did not always choose the right response.  I did not stand up every time and attack with the Word, God’s truths about the situations.  I took the offenses; I tried not too.  I took my eyes of Jesus for a moment and did not immediately apply Proverbs 4 to my life situations.  I did not “ let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee.” Proverbs 4:25   I unfortunately lost my focus.  Life was blurred.

January 31, 2017 (a friend shared a dream she had on January 26, 2017):

Verily, verily, I say to you: “Take the obstructive path for you have many great works ahead of you. I saw a pen writing. There will be great rewards for you in heaven. Amen”

She heard this statement three times in the dream.  Take the obstructive path was a phrase that I heard from three different people in January.  This phrase resounded through my spirit and helped me make it through this rough patch of time in my journey.

I could not have made it through without this word from the Lord:

 He that dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say of the LORD, [He is] my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. 3 Surely, he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, [and] from the noisome pestilence. 4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth [shall be thy] shield and buckler. 5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; [nor] for the arrow [that] flieth by day; 6 [Nor] for the pestilence [that] walketh in darkness; [nor] for the destruction [that] wasteth at noonday. 7 A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; [but] it shall not come nigh thee. 8 Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked. 9 Because thou hast made the LORD, [which is] my refuge, [even] the most High, thy habitation; 10 There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling. 11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. 12 They shall bear thee up in [their] hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone. 13 Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet. 14 Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name. 15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I [will be] with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honor him. 16 With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation. Psalm 91

Thank God!  He delivered me and showed me his salvation.  He is my Savior of ALL, all things and all situations!

I can now say:

For in my time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. 6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies’ round about me: therefore, will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD. 7 Hear, O LORD, [when] I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me. Psalm 27:5-7

February 9, 2017

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March 5, 2017 from my journal:

Trials are inevitable, but our victory is assured. Stand confident in that victory.  God will not fail you.

[We are] troubled on every side, yet not distressed; [we are] perplexed, but not in despair; 9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; … 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding [and] eternal weight of glory;  2 Corinthians 4:8-9, 17 

The Holy Spirit was gracious and merciful.  He gave me song after song to help me through 2017 and to act as salve in my wounds

March 13, 2017:

Thou Art a Shield for Me by Byron Cage  

Lord, how are they increased that trouble me
many are they that rise up against me.
Many there be which say of my soul
there is no help for Him in God.

But Thou, O Lord, art a shield for me
my glory, You lift mine head.
But Thou, O Lord, art a shield for me
you’re my glory, the lifter up of mine head.

 I cried unto the Lord with my voice
and He heard me out of His holy hill.
I laid me down and I slept
I awaked; for the Lord sustained me.
But thou oh lord art a shield for me
my glory, You lift my head
But thou oh lord art a shield for me
my glory, the lifter up of my head

 I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people
that have set themselves against me round about.
I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people
that have set themselves against me round about.

Thank You for lifting
thank You for lifting
thank You for lifting mine head.

When I Think About the Lord by HILLSONG UNITED

When I Think about the Lord,
How He saved me, how He raised me,
how He filled me, with the Holy Ghost.
How He healed me, to the uttermost.

When I Think about the Lord,
how He picked me up and turned me around,
how He placed my feet on solid ground

It makes me wanna shout,
Hallelujah,
Thank you JESUS,
LORD, your worthy, of all the glory, and all the honor,
and all the praise…

March 23, 2017:  My Frapping God

For we have not a high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as [we are, yet] without sin. 16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help (boētheia: a rope or chain for frapping a vessel: ) in time of need.  Hebrews 4:15-16

When a boat was in danger of sinking, the crew would strap ropes or chains around the hull to strengthen and reinforce ship parts that were under great strain.  Frapping would keep the ship from splitting apart or falling to pieces during a violent storm.   The writer of Hebrews was communicating an important truth.  God can sustain and strengthen our lives in order to withstand any storm.  Thank God that He is a Frapping God!  The Holy Spirit held me together.

March 26, 2017:

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APRIL 13, 2017:

I heard this song for the first time. This became my anthem because I could feel the pain she was singing.  I believe in faith that I am complete in Him.  However, he is still perfecting me so that I will become his reflection.  Until he returns, I am still…

UNFINISHED  by Mandisa

Not scared to say it, I used to be the one
Preaching it to you, that you could overcome
I still believe it, but it ain’t easy
‘Cause that world I painted, where things just all work out
It started changing and I started having doubts
And it got me so down

But I picked myself back up
And I started telling me
No, my God’s not done
Making me a masterpiece
He’s still working on me

He started something good and I’m gonna believe it
He started something good and He’s gonna COMPLETE it
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished
I’m just unfinished
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished

I know His history and the kind of God He is
He might make it a mystery
But He’s proving I can trust in Him
And yeah, I believe it

So I can pick myself back up
And keep on telling me
No, my God’s not done
Making me a masterpiece
No, my God’s not done

He started something good and I’m gonna believe it
He started something good and He’s gonna COMPLETE it
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished
(Yeah)
I’m just unfinished
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through

Still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me
He’s still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me

He started something good and I’m gonna believe it
He started something good and He’s gonna COMPLETE it
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished
I’m just unfinished
(I’m just unfinished)
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished

Still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me
He’s still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me
Oh, yeah
I’m just unfinished

July 16, 2017: (And yet another healing of the soul song)

NOT TODAY by Hillsong

Trouble won’t throw me, won’t break me
Won’t scare me no more
Fear must have thought I was faithless
When it came for my heart

‘Cause I got a song that will never die
I know Your love is the reason why

I’ll sing the night into the morning
I’ll sing the fear into Your praise
I’ll sing my soul into Your presence
Whenever I say Your name
Let the devil know not today

Tell me did the enemy panic
As You took up that cross
Tell me did the darkness cry mercy
As You rolled back that rock

‘Cause I know Your life is the life in mine
I know Your love is the reason why

I’ll sing the night into the morning
I’ll sing the fear into Your praise
I’ll sing my soul into Your presence
Whenever I say Your name
Let the devil know not today
Whenever I say Your name, JESUS
Let the devil know not today
Not now, not ever again

Your love stood down death
Crushed the devil’s head
Fear is just a liar
Running out of breath
The fight beneath Your feet
I’m standing on Jesus name
So let the devil know not today
Let the devil know not today, no, no
Not now, not ever again, Jesus
Let the devil know not today
Not today, not today

I’ll sing the night into the morning
I’ll sing the fear into Your praise
I’ll sing my soul into Your presence
Whenever I say Your name, Jesus
Let the devil know not today
Let the devil know not today, no, no
Not now, not ever again
Let the devil know not today
Let the devil know not today
Let the devil know not today

August 10, 2017:

Excerpt from my journal. This was almost exactly one year from when my Glory Story began:

Dear God,

Thank you for loving me even when I have just chosen to exist. Thank you for loving me when I did not love myself.  Thank you for loving me back to You.  Thank You for mercy, grace and forgiveness for my disobedience. Thank You for healing a hurting heart. Thank You that just like my Glory Heart that broke into two pieces and was repaired, You have made my real heart whole again.

I am not sure exactly where I went wrong. I got off Your path. Hurt is all I can pinpoint. I know that I must let go completely.  I must trust You, God, completely.  I want Your presence, Your Glory.  What changes do I need to make? Show me and let me receive a new beginning.

Only my God could love me back to His presence with such a special passage:

My frame was not hidden from You, when I was being formed in secret,
and intricately and skillfully formed [as if embroidered with many colors] in the depths of the earth. 16  Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; and in Your book, were all written the days that were appointed for me, when yet there was not one of them.  
Psalm 139:15 &16

Thank you, God, that when I started to sink and could only swim to the other side that you were with me the whole time, holding me up.  I continue to live amazed and complete in Him!  No, Him, no me.  He is the God of the impossible.

I asked God why I had to go through this trial.  His answer came to me in these two verses:

 And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with [him], that we may be also glorified together.  Romans 8:17

If I suffer through with Him, I may be also glorified with him. And…

But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, [even] as by the Spirit of the Lord.  2 Corinthians 3:18

We are transformed into the same image of our Father, from GLORY TO GLORY.  We do not jump from the mountain top of being in His presence to the next mountain top of experiencing His presence, His Glory.  There is a journey from Glory___ to ___Glory.  The journey is the “to” between the glories.  The “to,” the journey is what He uses to transform us, to change us to become more and more like him.  His presence changes us. The journey with him changes us.

My desire is “that I would walk worthy of God, who hath called me unto his kingdom and glory.”  1 Thessalonians 2:12

I shared this rather long testimony of a overcomer with you because the word says:

And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death. – Revelation 12:11 

I hope my testimony will encourage you in faith.  I hope that when trials come your way that you know you can be confident in His word and His faithfulness.  He will bring you through and to the other side.  He is faithful that promised.

My prayer for you:

 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you complete, perfect, establish, strengthen, settle [you]. 11 To him [be] glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen. – 1 Peter 5:10-11 KJV

What about 2018? Are you ready? Let’s go! All glory to God!

3 thoughts on “My Glory Story: Praise God through the Pain, Part 3”

  1. Amazing, beautiful, touching, painful, revealing, healing, glorifying testimony of your journey and God’s faithfulness and love. I love you, my beautiful Daughter, and Sister-in-Christ, Mom

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  2. Truly walking with The Lord! I saw that in you when we visited in the fall and your glory story exemplifies that. Thank you for sharing, definitely inspiring.

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