Yesterday, I began with devotion time, but I did not dedicate the day to the Lord.“I” wanted to finish editing about 2000 pictures on my computer. “I” had a plan but God had another. Honestly, I was not thrilled about His request. His plan required me to get real and honest with y’all. So, here we go. This story is about some renovations He needed to make in me.
Renovations are costly, hard work and a pain in the side to live through. Some areas of my life have been under reno since late March
March 21, 2018, I had planned a trip to Knoxville to visit a friend during one of Kris’ business trips. However, plans changed. I was led to stay home and pray. Parker was really struggling at the plate. I went to the throne room to have a meeting with God about him and a few other things going on in our family. I came out of the throne with my tail between my legs. I learned that I had been selfish, unkind and proud. Ouch! I received spanking #1.
“MY SON, DO NOT MAKE LIGHT OF THE DISCIPLINE OF THE LORD, AND DO NOT LOSE HEART and GIVE UP WHEN YOU ARE CORRECTED BY HIM; FOR THE LORD DISCIPLINES and CORRECTS THOSE WHOM H E LOVES, AND HE PUNISHES EVERY SON WHOM HE RECEIVES and WELCOMES [TO H IS HEART].” You must submit to [correction for the purpose of] discipline; God is dealing with you as with sons; for what son is there whom his father does not discipline?”
Sparking#2 came via a text video. I received it out of the blue. It was about not being judgmental from my one and only niece. She had no clue what I was being taught on that day.
I continued in the presence of the Lord. I asked if I needed to fast about Park’s and the other things I had taken to the throne. Later the same night, I was reading a book and I received my answer. The author suggested fasting from criticism for 24 hours. I knew with out a doubt I was supposed to fast criticism and judgement for the next 100 hours. 😳uch! Spanking #3 for the day.
I decided to go to the Word and pick up some tools to help me fast and with my renovation. Since I had been unkind, proud, and judgmental, I needed to change. Here are the scriptures God gave me:
1. Do not let unwholesome [worthless.] words ever come out of your mouth, but only such speech as is good for building up others, so that it will be a blessing to those who hear. Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor [perpetual animosity, resentment, strife, fault-finding] and slander be put away from you, along with every kind of malice [all spitefulness] BE KIND to one another, forgiving one another [readily and freely], just as God in Christ also forgave you.” EPHESIANS 4:29, 31-32 AMP
2. …Put on kindness and humbleness. Colossians 3:12
3. God resists the proud, but gives grace unto the humble. James 4:
4. …Be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble. 1 Peter 5:5
The word clothed in this verse means to “gird yourself in service garb.” Slaves back then wore a white apron to serve. Jesus put on a white servants towel before he washed the disciples feet in John 13:4. The Holy Spirit directed me to tie a white hanky to my pretty new bag to remind me of His Word. ( I have humbly witnessed the meaning of the white hanky to a few people, too. Very humbling.)
My prayer became: Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable and pleasing in Your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.PSALM 19:14
People and situations have entered my life that are like finger nails on a chalk board. I havre tried to avoid them, but Jesus did not avoid me. Did he? Well, I ran into these people and situations over and over this last month. I was so blessed practice my lessond:
1. Be kind.
2. Keep your mouth shut.
3. Be humble
4. Don’t judge.
5. Don’t criticize.
Just when I thought I might get to take the servants hanky off my bag, the Holy Spirit added one more project to the renovation of me: Hold your peace
Peace in itself is another whole blog for another time. However, I understood holding your peace was to:
1. Keep your mouth
2. Don’t get upset.
3. Don’t let anything take your completeness in Him.
Earlier this week, I failed my final exam. I botched up. I dropped a bucket of black paint all over the renovation of me. I did not hold my peace. I was not kind in words. I judged and criticized. Sadly, I lost my witness in about 30 seconds. I awoke the next morning repentant. I called and ask forgiveness. I then got a couple more Holy Ghost whippings during my devotion time.
Reading through Mark 1, Jesus said “Hold your peace!” which means muzzle your mouth! He had just told me that the day before I lost my peace. Then this post came up from 1 year ago:
When we fail to remember what it cost Jesus to save us, we tend to treat our salvation cheaply and with disregard.
Jesus’ naked body was flaunted in humiliation before a watching world. His flesh was ripped to shreds; His body was bruised from head to toe; He had to heave His body upward for every breath He breathed; He was in constant excruciating pain. Blood drenched Jesus’ face and streamed from His hands, His feet and from countless cuts and gaping wounds from the scourging he took. The cross was a humiliating, disgusting, repulsive, nauseating, stomach-turning sight.
Think about that before we choose to sin! He chose to take it for you and I. Why do we so so easily not choose Him every time? If we choose sin, we are not choosing Him in that moment. How can we so easily turn our backs on Him?
I sinned! I chose to sin. Thank God for Jesus. His blood poured out for me erased the spill of my black words of sin. I was washed white as snow. See, I am not perfect, but in Him I am whole, healed, complete, forgiven and in peace.
I am now choosing to be kind, to be clothed in humility and to hold my peace. It is costly, hard work and painful to crucify the flesh and to undergo renovations. However, keep up the renovations Holy Spirit. I still have lots to learn. Eventually, I will look just like you! Let’s do this again.
I found this little 99 cent bracelet at Michael’s on the day after I didn’t hold my peace. Just another helpful reminder.
After seeing, “I Can Only Imagine,” the movie, my biggest question to my God: Why so much pain? Why the children? This song was born of such much pain. Here is the response I received:
Joyce Meyer-Look at her ministry. She was sexually abused by her father. She grew out of unimaginable pain.
Kenneth Hagin– Look at his ministry. He was the modern-day father of faith. He was a teenager on his death bed. His faith grew out of so much unimaginable physical pain.
Kenneth and Gloria Copeland– Look at their ministry. They dared to believe God at His word and the grew out of the unimaginable pain of poverty.
Abraham-Look at Abraham. He was the father of faith. He grew out of the unimaginable pain of being childless at 100 years old. Abraham dare to believe God. He is the father of many nations.
Mike Burnette-Look at Mike (our pastor). He grew out of the unimaginable pain of being fatherless. His family was asked to leave a church from a pulpit. He dared to believe God and look what God is doing now.
Again, I asked. WHY SO MUCH PAIN? My answer was Satan meant it for pain. Satan meant it for destruction. He comes to “steal, kill and destroy.” (John 10:10) That is his plan. However, I, I AM, the Lord, turned the pain for gain, for life abundantly.
The conversation between the Holy Spirit and I continued. “Now, Tammy, I have a question for you.” I heard this in my spirit as loud as if Jesus had been sitting right beside me and asking. The question:
“Has any one person ever endured more pain than Jesus? He was born to die an unimaginable death for you.”
My Bible says that his accusers, the religious of the day, spit in his face. They struck him with their fists. The slapped him with open hands. They tied him to a post and beat him unmercifully. The soldiers stripped him naked and dressed him up like a king and made so much fun of him. The crowned him with a crown of thorns. Come on, think how painful just a splinter is. They spat in his face again. They took the reed and hit him in the head with the crown of thorn on. When this group finished making fun of him, they ripped of the robe which had to be excruciating if the blood had begun to dry. After parading him through the streets, the reached Golgotha and then they nailed him to the cross. They didn’t smooth out the wood of the cross, so all those splinters were poking into his open wounds, too. However, then the most imaginable and painful thing happened to him. Jesus took all our sins on Him. He did nothing wrong, but he took all of this for me and for you. Why would he take the unimaginable punishment that we deserved? Simply, he loves us.
Thank God he paid the painful price for us. He was tempted with every temptation we would ever encounter but chose to live sinless. The best news is that he OVERCAME death and was resurrected. His resurrection tells us, it’s paid, and you are free.
He endured the pain so that we may reign with Him.
All of God’s people that I mentioned above, died to their old selves and were resurrected to their new selves in Christ. They got a second chance at the life God had always intended for them to live. They exchanged the unimaginable pain for an imaginable reign. The chose to believe God. Enduring the pain is training for reigning. If we endure, we shall also reign with Him. 2 Timothy 2:12
If you have experienced unimaginable pain, it is not God. His plan for your life is better. Choose Jesus. He died for me. He died for you. He loves you and you are so very important to him. There is nothing that you have done that he will not forgive. He died for that very mistake. He gave his life so that you could have life. If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; Look, all things are new. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
It was raining cats and dogs. The thought darted across my mind to stay at home and not to volunteer at YAIPaks. I replied to myself, “Not a chance! Stay Focused.” I got in my car and off I went. When I topped the hill to turn into YAIPaks, this sunset masterpiece greeted me from the heavens. Thank you Father. You are so faithful!
I keep my eyes always on the LORD. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalm 16:8
The whole earth is full of His glory!” Isa 6:3 NKJV
The distinction between sacred and secular is a false dichotomy. All things were created by God and for God—no exceptions. Every note of music, every color on the palette, every flavor that tingles the taste buds. Arnold Sommerfeld, the German physicist and pianist, observed that a single hydrogen atom which emits one hundred frequencies, is more musical than a grand piano which emits only eighty-seven frequencies. So every single atom is a unique expression of worship. According to composer Leonard Bernstein, the best translation of Genesis 1:3 is not “And God said.” He believed a better translation is “And God sang.” The Almighty sang every atom into existence, and every atom echoes that original melody in three-part harmony by the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Super-sensitive sound instruments have discovered that earthworms make faint staccato sounds, while whale songs can travel thousands of miles under water. Lewis Thomas put it this way: “If we had better hearing and could discern the descants of seabirds, the rhythmic timpani of schools of mullets, and even the distant harmonies of flies hanging over meadows in the sun, the combined sound might lift us off our feet.” And some day they will. Glorified eardrums will hear this Scripture fulfilled: “Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, singing: ‘To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power, for ever and ever!’” (Rev 5:13 NIV). Today make it your goal to glorify God in all that you do. – Jentezen Franklin (Online Daily Devotional)
Cesar Augustus was the first Emperor of the Roman Empire. He reigned during a really dark time in Israel. He was a dude who thought he knew it all. He sent out an Executive Order; big brother wanted to know who and where you were! He wanted money! ([And] this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.) Everybody went to be taxed, everyone into his own city.
Joe went up to Judea to David’s City, Bethlehem from Galilee from his hometown Nazareth. He was a descendant of David, you know. He had to drag Mary along with him. She was about to pop because she was so Prego. It wasn’t long after they arrive that she told Joe: “IT’S TME!” It was probably the 80-100-mile hike, that 4-7 day walk that put her into labor. You know that girl was worn out. Joe forgot to make reservations at the Holiday Inn-Bethlehem. Everything was sold out. There was a big crowd in Bethlehem to be taxed. You know how crazy the post office is on tax-day. Bethlehem was buzzing just like that . No Vacancy signs were everywhere.
Mary had sweet baby Jesus in the only place they could find…A BARN in the hood of hoods. (Light brought into darkness. God Almighty laid aside His Glory and appeared on the scene as a baby.) She had her first son, her first child, away from home. She probably left his onesies in Nazareth, so she wrapped him up like a peanut with what she had. She wrapped him up, swaddled him and laid him on a manger hewn out of rock. You know, the things the farm animals ate out of. He came into the earth just like he left the earth. All wrapped up.
Out in the county there were some farmers minding their business. They were sleeping out in the field taking care of their animals, so no harm would come to them.
Out of the darkness-kabam-shazam- out of nowhere! Wow- a HUGE angel, he had to be at least 20 feet, showed up from nowhere. Mega Angel lit up that whole field like sunrise over the ocean. It nearly scared the farmers to death. They were shaking in their boots.
The angel roared DON’T BE AFRAID! Look! Listen! I am bringing you GOOD NEWS!!! You have hit the lottery. It is going to make you so HAPPY. Everybody is! It’s good news for everybody.
Today. T O D AY! In Bethlehem. Are you ready for it? Our Savior has been born, the Savior of the World. He is here! Christ the Lord is here! Our Savior, our deliverer…from Greek word “sozo” which means to save, keep safe, and sound, to rescue from danger, to save from perishing from disease, to make well, heal, restorer, doctor/healer when you need him, restorer to health from the oppressor, you know the one who tries to harm and hurt you, the one who tried to keep you beat down. Feel like you’re missing something? He will complete you. Anxious? He says don’t worry! Sick? God has no big problems! Need something? He is more than enough! Lonely? He will never leave you nor forsake you? Need a constant in your life? He will never change. He always has been, always is and always will be. Want to do well? He has the keys to the kingdom. His name is I AM, I WAS, I always will be. HIS NAME IS:
CHRIST: the anointed. He is smeared all over, bathed-in, like suntan oil at the beach…it is all over Him to be who he was and is supposed to be. He is furnished with all necessary powers to perform his position with duties as assigned by God.
The LORD: the man of the hour. He has power for decision making. He gets things done. He is supreme. He has it all under control. He is your Savior for such a time as this. He is your SOZO now. Life is now. He is not a fire policy. He is the son of God and he is here.
A child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace (the Chief of Completeness) – Isaiah 9:6
Get it? I AM is here!
This is the sign. You will find the Savior of the World wrapped in swaddling clothes and he is lying in a M A N G E R. (A manger? The king is in a manger?) Don’t miss the sign boys.
The heavens could not stand it anymore- the good news! Bam! The angel’s back-up singers the Heavenly Host (Heard of them? They are a real popular group with God) I mean I am talking a platoon, a troop of hosts showed up and put on a show. They were praising God and rocking the stage saying:
“Glory to God in the highest. Peace on Earth. Good will to men!” You could hear them all the way in Nazareth.
After the field concert (And Luke Bryan thought this was an original idea?), the Angel of the Lord & the Heavenly Host – poof- they jetted back to heaven in an instant. The Sheps chatted and thought it might be a good idea to let the flock hang out and for them to head on to Bethlehem. They wanted to see what all the fuss was about. I mean the Lord had dropped a concert in the middle of the field in the middle of the night to let them know the good news. Talk about virtual reality.
The Sheps sped to Bethlehem. Lo and behold! Surprise! Surprise! Surprise! Can you believe it? They found Mare & Joe and sweet lil’ baby Jesus lying in the manger. After they saw BABY JESUS, they went about telling everybody about it! They didn’t go to bed for days. Everybody they told wandered in AMAZEMENT. You can see them just shaking their heads. Can you imagine in Benny came up from the Chicken coop and told you such?
Mary was just blown away. She kept quiet and to herself. She thought…I birthed the King? He’s lying in a manger? The Savior? After the long journey, the labor, it was too much. She just kept all this to herself and let her thoughts just circle in her tiny little brain. It was just too much to process.
The Sheps! They just kept on partying. Glorifying, praising, singing to the top of their lungs to God. What a story, a Glory Story of the Savior of the World!