by Janet Hyun

by Tammy
June 16, 2021

If the Lord had not been my help, My soul would have soon lived in the land of silence. When I said, my foot slips, thy MERCY, O LORD, held me up.  (Psalm 94:17-18)

When we invite Jesus into our life, I think there is a common misconception.   It is not like, “Hey Jesus come on in” and poof, we are perfect.  I wish.  I have come to learn that as followers of Christ, the carpenter, we are an ongoing renovation project.  When we seek Him and dive into His word, He renews our minds.  He directs us back on track.  He gently loves us back to Him and the life He has planned for us.

February 20,2021 was my youngest son’s birthday and a time for celebration.  I should have been very happy, yet it began as a sad and tearful morning.   My plea to our Father for over a month had been, “TURN MY DISGUST INTO YOUR MERCY!” On this somber morning, I was full of disgust with the sinful, evil direction of our country.  I was disgusted by national and state “leaders;” with the deception and leadership in church; by my people who say they know Jesus as their Savior, but have turned their backs on Him as their Lord; by the narcissistic selfishness of others.  What made me the most disgusted is that it took so long to get the log out of my own eye.  I was disgusted with me. 

I thought of the failures of my past year.  I had been given extra time to lose weight for my oldest son’s wedding and I had not been resolute in the process.  I was done with my own self. I concluded that I a big problem with self-control, specifically food. How could I be resolute in so many things, but not this stupid battle? I felt like a fake and liar.  My maiden’s name was “Lowe”, and I was living up to my name.

Snow and ice covered the ground that day. I suddenly grasped why we have to stay in the footsteps of Jesus and walk by faith.  When we get out of step with Jesus, it is so easy to backslide.  When we get out of alignment, it wreaks havoc. When we get out of love into disgust it is not the place to be.

If the Lord had not been my HELP, My soul would have soon lived in the land of silence. When I said, my foot slips, thy mercy, O LORD, held me up.  (Psalm 94:17-18)

MERCY…MERCY…MERCY…thank God for His mercies, lovingkindness, and goodness that are new every morning.

I enCOURAGE you to let the mercy of the Lord hold you up when you slip and when you are walking along in faith.  Allow Him to turn your disgust into His mercy.  It is your choice.   It is easier to be kind, loving and good to others, but be kind to yourself.  Love and be good to yourself.  The truth is Jesus believes you are worth it.  He loves you!


  1. ❤❤❤ Your candor and openness to share your short comings provides encouragement and faith to others who are also fighting their own battles. Love this post! Love you, Tammy, Mom

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